I was born and raised in a family of faith. I grew, led and loved within many wards. I married a returned missionary at BYU. Through 8 years of betrayal and heartbreak, I stayed strong, believing my example would encourage my husband to be the man I deserved. It did not. My marriage ended quickly one day, upon a final discovery that he was not worthy of my future family. I started from scratch to rebuild who I was.

Where will I go? I go to a strong, supportive and accepting community that encourages me to find myself and stand for things I know to be right. I seek out my own answers, instead of relying on the words of men. I go to my loving Savior to learn more of Him, my faith in Him has never faltered. I prioritize my own personal revelation over voices of authority.

I go to a community that lives passionately by their own values, each individual and unique. My children will learn by example to listen to their own inner voice and proudly live for themselves.

I go to a heaven unshackled by polygamous bonds. I am free.

Colleen in AZ

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