I grew up in a strict LDS household. It was my world, i knew nothing different. The promise of happiness kept me going, but inside I wasn’t happy.

After years of therapy and treatment for depression and other struggles, I began to wonder if I wasn’t good enough to reach the happiness that the church teaches will come with obedience. I stopped attending church about 8 years ago, but haven’t considered myself part of it for about 5 years. I was scared that there wouldn’t be happiness without the church.

I slowly began discovering who I was as an individual. I learned that my happiness doesn’t come from following a church. I began to discover and follow my own values. Some match up with the church, and some don’t. I discovered that who I am is much more than someone who needs to go to church, read scriptures, and obey commandments–I am Rebecca! I am good, powerful, strong, and honest–and that IS enough.

“To whom shall you go?” That’s easy–anywhere! I am free to choose where I want to go. Life is good. I am good. And I am finally happy!

Rebecca in Salt Lake City

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