I was born into a good LDS family with ancestors going back to the Mormon pioneers. I participated fully in primary, had many callings starting from a young age, graduated seminary and institute, and got married in the temple. I met a lot of amazing people and had some great experiences, but through it all, I never felt like I quite fit in, never felt like I was in the right place, never felt like my beliefs totally fell in line with those in the LDS church. The more I grew, and the more I learned, the greater that divide became until it hurt too much to stay. At first I left to give myself time to think, time to pray, plead with God to help me find a way to fit in. My prayers were answered but not how I expected.

I had several occasions to go to Community of Christ and partake in services, and every time I relished in the joy I found there. Just a visit became 2, and then “I’ll just go once a month.” I finally decided that it was stupid to stay away from a place that gave me peace and happiness, so I started going every chance I got. I go to services, book clubs, parties, girls nights out, Dungeons & Dragons nights, LGBTQ+ events, camping, women’s retreats where we connect with the feminine divine, and so much more that is involved in Community of Christ.

This change in my life has been such a wonderful blessing! I have finally found a home, a place where I truly fit. I have learned what it feels like to be loved, and to love, what grace really is, how to forgive and find peace with those who cause me pain, that every creation of God’s has great value, and I can learn from every person’s perspective, no matter their religion, gender, race, age, or sexual orientation. I know that I am becoming a better person because of Community of Christ and I wouldn’t change my participation with them for anything in the world!

Emily in UT

These are stories of health and happiness outside the Mormon church.

Join the discussion and submit your profile here.

The Simple Life

At the age of 9 I was baptized into the Mormon Church with the rest of my family after having met with missionaries. I was an on again off again member for a while until 2001 when my family and I were sealed together in the Salt Lake Temple. From there I was a fully...

Those who wander are not always lost

In response to "where will you go?" I say, "those who wander are not always lost," and there is "joy in the journey." The first part is a popular quote from J.R.R. Tolkien, the second part is from the 1998 EFY theme and together they sum up what my spiritual journey...

I can finally enjoy life

I left the LDS church 7 years ago. In that time I have become my genuine self, made lasting and beautiful friendships with people who love me unconditionally, gotten married to the love of my life, and had a gorgeous and healthy child. I don't judge others as harshly...

Towards Love, Authenticity, and a Genuine Daily Life

10 years ago as a gay, newly divorced father of four and former Mormon, where I would go and what I would do was indeed the looming question. A lifetime of seminary, sunday school, priesthood, mission, BYU and church leadership had me imagining myself at best as a...

I will find happiness

The Mormon church has been apart of my family for generations and I would say it is still a part of my culture. I learned a lot of things from being an active member, a bishop’s daughter, and a youth leader. I learned to how to be confident speaking in front of a...

Losing my religion wasn’t the end

The Mormon faith has always been a strong influence in my life and upbringing. However at a young age, I chose to become inactive. I was a very confused young adult with a lot of questions. The answer I was given: to pray... which I did but I still felt very unsure...