I was born and raised in the church and served a mission in the Baltic States. I was a very dedicated until I was 33, even though I struggled with being a single, queer Mormon. I came out when I turned 30, and stayed in the church. Last year, after the ruling on Marriage Equality, I stopped going. I didn’t give up on the church until November of last year, with the policy. My shelf shattered and I realized, to be happy and healthy I needed to move on. I resigned my membership.

I found a committed, fulfilling, and truly loving relationship with a woman in July 2015. I got engaged a year later. It didn’t work out, but it was one of the best experiences of my life. I have found friends and community all around me: former Mormons, current Mormons, and people that never had a thing to do with the church. I spend a lot of time with my book club, and at Seattle Reign soccer games, volunteering and watching with friends. I am buying a house, and pursuing a career I actually want. I feel like I am finally LIVING and LOVING my life.

 

Mandi in Seattle

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